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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Signz.. ii felt tat ii damn useless.. ii still say ii wan to make fren, lurve to make fren.. But ii didnt.. ii was so quiet, seldom tok to ppl de, nv approach to others.. haiz.. ii'm a verii iinner person, verii seldom share things to others usually kept iinside m0ii heart, den feel lyk ii'm verii anti-social.. But ii not, ii juz dunno how to communicate wif ppl.. ii wonder m0ii Horoscope iis truly Gemini or not, Gemini character iis a good talker and communicator, ambitious, verii popular, lurve social, got many fren, attract a lots of guy.. Tiis all r not mii except some part iis mii e.g dun lyk to be hanging out alone, a quick learner, curious about everything, a tale-teller, lyk tat only lo.. Signz.. ii tiink ii not Gemini sia, so weird de.. haiz.. Actually ii lurve to communicate but juz dunno y.. haiz.. Den ii dun used to iit chatting iin a big group, can accept a small group.. Den ii reallii dun used to iit wif other ppl only can feel comfortable when wif e.g Shi min, Siew Ling, Li ping, Siew Yue, Wan ting, Pei Li tiis few.. haiz.. ii wiish ii could change, from verii long tiime said till now le.. sianz.. ii reallii hope mayb can join something can push up m0ii confident, den mayb ii can try to tok more.. Jia you to myself!!
Family-Signz.. Quarrel, Ok, Quarrel, Ok.. haiz.. always lyk tat used to iit.. m0ii mum & mii born to be actually bad-temper, but only wif own family lar.. ii nv bad-temper wif m0ii fren de, coz iis not gd will lose fren.. haha.. Only can say "REN" "BEAR" "ENDURE".. haha.. But recently ok liao le, as both parent r bz working, becos of money.. haiz.. They said money cant buy happiness, but m0ii parent usually quarrel over money!? So wat!? hmm..do eu tiink money iis impt? ii found tat no money no happiness lehz.. But mayb money iis not everything lar, but only muz hav money to satisfy our pocket den will happy 50% liao.. haha.. Another 50% iis depend on other to make ourself happy.. haha.. Den regret something for spending unnecessary things, or quarrel/speak loud wif m0ii mum.. haiz.. ii muz tell myself not to do iit again! Gd luck to myself!!
Studies-Now Higher Nitec 1st yr ii tiink ii still can able to cope wif iit.. But to Higher Nitec 2nd yr ii verii scare sia.. ii tiink ii muz pay 1000% of attention also not enuf.. haha.. Den ii also dunno y usually felt sleepy de (but mayb iis ii slp late [but usually ii 11pm went to bed liao]).. ii so envy other tat can late slp, iin cls also nv wan to slp.. As for mii eyes feel lyk closing liao.. haiz.. ii feel lyk m0ii studies reallii drop le, always wif st00pid careless mistake (see wrong) lar.. iif not mayb not tat bad liao.. haiz.. ii muz reallii bucked up liao!! ii tried verii hard fully attention liao, not lyk last tiime slack but can get gd grade, now ii tiink cannot le.. Signz.. Esp next yr, scare no 1 teach mii, iif ii dun understand.. haiz.. ii muz Jia You, Jia You, Jia You!!
Life-m0ii life iis sux.. ii dunno y ii'm liviing sia? Y dun gif m0ii life to other who wan to live on.. Y born mii out, born to be so st00pid, useless, ugly bla bla bla... Argh.. haha.. But ii true lo.. m0ii life iis so dull, black&white.. ii wiish ii could stay on b4 primary sch life, no stress, having fun, loads of fren, tat tiime m0ii life was so colorful till secondary sch became less & less colorful.. As stress coming, no more fun study study study, fren not tat much etc.. Den till ITE (Is The End) m0ii life extremely sux.. Dun tiink ITE no stress w0rx, as for ITE-Service Skills deparment scare cannot go Higher Nitec lar, Higher Nitec 1st yr scare cannot go Higher Nitec 2nd yr lar, Higher Nitec 2nd yr scare cannot go Poly lar.. Loads of stress de w0rx.. If eu fails, den eu only got N'Level cert, come out wat eu can work, if eu smart can do big business "ii pei fu eu".. Regret last tiime nv study hard den go to NA, den wun be so stress on ITE liao.. Den Poly still muz tiink of d money, scare cant afford, den still mus study at least 3 yr, by d tiime ii already 24 yrs old.. Eu see lar, how old am ii.. haiz.. ii wiish at age 21 muz come out work to support m0ii family le, but muz till age 24 lehz.. haiz.. "FAN AH" ii tiink ii muz siing tat "FAN" song sang by Shino..
Overall m0ii life iis juz sux full of shit.. Coz mii, lyk ppl used to said "Zhou Yi Bu Shuan Yi Bu" ii translate iin Singlish hohz.. haha.. "Walk 1 step count 1 step" haiz.. m0ii daez iis juz "oh pass 1 day le ar" nv tiink too much, nv plan for future.. haha.. ii tiink actually from age of 18 should at least plan a bit liao.. But ii didnt, coz ii reallii dunno wat ii can work as.. haha.. haiz.. ppl used to say "Happii, Not happii, life still muz carry on, y not stay happii" so ii always tell myself tiis sentence!! Life muz carry on y not stay happii & "Yong Gan" "Jiang Qiang" de live on.. Rite!? Rawkx on eu guys~ Tk care everyone!! Shall end here~~
Family-Signz.. Quarrel, Ok, Quarrel, Ok.. haiz.. always lyk tat used to iit.. m0ii mum & mii born to be actually bad-temper, but only wif own family lar.. ii nv bad-temper wif m0ii fren de, coz iis not gd will lose fren.. haha.. Only can say "REN" "BEAR" "ENDURE".. haha.. But recently ok liao le, as both parent r bz working, becos of money.. haiz.. They said money cant buy happiness, but m0ii parent usually quarrel over money!? So wat!? hmm..do eu tiink money iis impt? ii found tat no money no happiness lehz.. But mayb money iis not everything lar, but only muz hav money to satisfy our pocket den will happy 50% liao.. haha.. Another 50% iis depend on other to make ourself happy.. haha.. Den regret something for spending unnecessary things, or quarrel/speak loud wif m0ii mum.. haiz.. ii muz tell myself not to do iit again! Gd luck to myself!!
Studies-Now Higher Nitec 1st yr ii tiink ii still can able to cope wif iit.. But to Higher Nitec 2nd yr ii verii scare sia.. ii tiink ii muz pay 1000% of attention also not enuf.. haha.. Den ii also dunno y usually felt sleepy de (but mayb iis ii slp late [but usually ii 11pm went to bed liao]).. ii so envy other tat can late slp, iin cls also nv wan to slp.. As for mii eyes feel lyk closing liao.. haiz.. ii feel lyk m0ii studies reallii drop le, always wif st00pid careless mistake (see wrong) lar.. iif not mayb not tat bad liao.. haiz.. ii muz reallii bucked up liao!! ii tried verii hard fully attention liao, not lyk last tiime slack but can get gd grade, now ii tiink cannot le.. Signz.. Esp next yr, scare no 1 teach mii, iif ii dun understand.. haiz.. ii muz Jia You, Jia You, Jia You!!
Life-m0ii life iis sux.. ii dunno y ii'm liviing sia? Y dun gif m0ii life to other who wan to live on.. Y born mii out, born to be so st00pid, useless, ugly bla bla bla... Argh.. haha.. But ii true lo.. m0ii life iis so dull, black&white.. ii wiish ii could stay on b4 primary sch life, no stress, having fun, loads of fren, tat tiime m0ii life was so colorful till secondary sch became less & less colorful.. As stress coming, no more fun study study study, fren not tat much etc.. Den till ITE (Is The End) m0ii life extremely sux.. Dun tiink ITE no stress w0rx, as for ITE-Service Skills deparment scare cannot go Higher Nitec lar, Higher Nitec 1st yr scare cannot go Higher Nitec 2nd yr lar, Higher Nitec 2nd yr scare cannot go Poly lar.. Loads of stress de w0rx.. If eu fails, den eu only got N'Level cert, come out wat eu can work, if eu smart can do big business "ii pei fu eu".. Regret last tiime nv study hard den go to NA, den wun be so stress on ITE liao.. Den Poly still muz tiink of d money, scare cant afford, den still mus study at least 3 yr, by d tiime ii already 24 yrs old.. Eu see lar, how old am ii.. haiz.. ii wiish at age 21 muz come out work to support m0ii family le, but muz till age 24 lehz.. haiz.. "FAN AH" ii tiink ii muz siing tat "FAN" song sang by Shino..
Overall m0ii life iis juz sux full of shit.. Coz mii, lyk ppl used to said "Zhou Yi Bu Shuan Yi Bu" ii translate iin Singlish hohz.. haha.. "Walk 1 step count 1 step" haiz.. m0ii daez iis juz "oh pass 1 day le ar" nv tiink too much, nv plan for future.. haha.. ii tiink actually from age of 18 should at least plan a bit liao.. But ii didnt, coz ii reallii dunno wat ii can work as.. haha.. haiz.. ppl used to say "Happii, Not happii, life still muz carry on, y not stay happii" so ii always tell myself tiis sentence!! Life muz carry on y not stay happii & "Yong Gan" "Jiang Qiang" de live on.. Rite!? Rawkx on eu guys~ Tk care everyone!! Shall end here~~